Sunday

Waking up, not having the motivation to move out of my bed. Smelling something unfamiliar, opening my eyes and there it is, a cup of cafe latte that my father put next to my bed. I apparently forgot to pull down the blind for my window, so my room is bright, no sunshine but a lot of light. I sit up, I can feel my the ache in the back of my head. No, not hung over, just some weird headache that has started occurring every morning since i returned home. Getting out of bed, putting on my woolen socks and take the stairs downstairs. The fireplace is the destination. I stand there with my latte and watch biathlon. My parents talk, but I cannot hear anything. My sister bumps into me, but I cannot respond. I go upstairs again. Crawl down under my two duvets and hide from the world. I try to find away to make myself into anti-matter, but fail epically as expected. I wonder why I cannot project any of my friends into my bed to comfort me. How do I not make a fool of myself? I want to protect myself to all costs, I failed with that too. I would do so much better with less defensive mechanisms in my behaviour, but I just cannot get rid of it.

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Hej jag bor i usa as well. Jag laste om hur du skrev att du ofta jamnfor USA med Sverige och kritiserar USA och berattar hur mycket battre Sverige ar. Det finns mycket man kan kritisera om USA och Amerikaner, och tro mig..manga Amerikaner kritiserar sitt land valdigt hart. Visst sverige ar lite battre pa vissa saker men nar du kritiserar USA och babblar pa hur mycket battre Sverige ar sa det inte sarskilt trevligt for en Amerikan. Du kan kritisera USA men du behover inte alltid papeka hur mycket battre Sverige ar. For USA ar battre pa andra saker, tillexempel sa ar de inte sa laskigt flykting fientliga som vi ar i Sverige. Medans Sverige haller pa att fa in Sverige demokraterna i riksdagen sa har USA Obama som president. Jag sager det har for att jag forstar en del av mina Amerikanska kompisar som blir lite paff nar de traffer europer som sager att.."we doooo it so much better in Europe etc"...om europa ar sa jakla mycket battre sa kanske det ar bast att man stannar dar och haller tyst. Du kommer att alltid va labeled as the swede, get used to it. Man maste acceptera att kulturer ar olika.

2010-01-11 @ 00:00:56

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