Tuesday
Sometimes life takes turns that you don't expect. Today I felt like the world wanted to punish me for being naive or something; nothing worked. At work, I had obstacles with at least half of the patients. Medicines were gone, people were mean, people did not open their doors, measuring devices were lost and so on. It was awful. I felt really unappreciated. Then, my head started to ache. One of the carpenters then had an hourlong conversation with me after work that really cheered my up. I went grocery shopping and then I biked to my uncle. When I arrived, I went out in his yard and started reading. The relaxation that I felt at that moment is indescribable.
When I went upstairs to say goodbye my cousin came and gave me a hug and then I just couldn't leave. I just had to play with him. After a while, he crawled up in my lap and wanted to count fingers and toes and name them. He laughed, a laughter that came straight from the heart. There was so much love and happiness. He wanted to measure my hand, pretend like it was a spider that crawled on him.
I got a bit tired, laid down in the sofa and closed my eyes, and there my three year old cousin comes and tucks me in with a towel and puts a pillow below my head. It made my day. Just one year ago, he barely spoke and was rather scared of me. Now, he shows that he cares in every way and I cannot wait to see him again. In one sense it feels bad as I go to visit him and not my uncle, but I think he understands. I do appreciate my uncle a lot. He is always there and he feeds me. He talks about life and listens when I need to talk. He also gave life to my wonderful cousin. I cannot really describe the joy in me.
Other obstacles has been in my way too, but after talking to my friends and sister I feel like I can go to bed without worrying too much. I am still a bit on edge, but I am hoping that I am making mountains out of molehills.
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