Wednesday
Had lunch with a friend and we had a very rewarding conversation. My level of actual rationality was questioned, which was more than needed. I really value rational thinking, as little emotional interference when it comes to decision, and I doubt my own ability to express and feel stronger emotions. The last part is definitely questionable, as I would be some kind of android if that was the case - and as far as I am concerned. Is just that I am so bad at trusting people. Trust is something that has to be earned, and I am very selective when it comes to whom to trust. Which ends up with me not daring to trust anyone, so my friend asked if that doesn't make me feel lonely.
I don't know if I feel lonely, I guess I do sometimes - but that I think is common for everyone. Sometimes we all end up in situations where we cannot really share what is going on inside without feeling too exposed.
I want it to be Friday already, want this week to be done with. I need time with myself.
Have been awake since 05:50, my head is heavy. Even though today was intense, I have had a good day. Studied during the morning for my test in Rhetoric. Nice to have that done with. Now I am at work, about to start a new book for another class. Had a nice dinner together with a nice young man. He made me smile a lot, definitely a good ending of this day.
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