Sunday
I haven't finished my essay, I am out of licorice, I just got informed that I wasted 30 hours preparing a concert for nothing, I have a pressure over my chest that makes it hard to breathe, I forgot that emotions do have impact on my life, I forgot how much it hurts to trust someone. I forgot that I cannot control all the aspects of my life as my life is a part of other peoples lives too. I forgot that I cannot hide anywhere any longer, that I have to face the consequences of my own decisions. I forgot that I don't know how to deal with drama, how to deal irrationality, how to deal with changing my plans in the last minute. I forgot how much I dislike people that cannot face the truth, that don't dare to be upfront, that are scared of words and tries to hide it in apologetic action. I forgot that what I value is not universally considered valuable. Then I remembered that in my life, the only one that I can make sure is feeling good and know how to improve the life of, is myself. I can only be happy if I let myself be happy. I cannot put my life in other peoples hands. But at the same time, I want to let go. Let go of the rigid plan that is my life, let go of the chains that ties me to conformity, let go of my mind and let someone else in. Be able to welcome a new world into mine, be able to share my world with you. Please don't give up.
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Postat av: Anonym
you can share your world with me amelie :p
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