Tuesday
Soon it will be tomorrow, and tomorrow by this time, this one will be rather happy. No work to think about for at least two days. At home, they are getting all of week 44 off, which is November 1st and onwards. I lose the concepts of weeks when I am here, as it is not used at all. When I came home over the summer I had no clue what week it was and made life rather difficult.
So I had tons of thoughts that I had planned on sharing, but then I realized that I cannot do that. Mainly because some of them might be seen as a remark on people's behavior. I guess it is that too in some sense, but that is not the primary reason for me blogging. Right now I am trying to overcome this huge fear of mine, and I am failing. Mainly because I indirectly, insanely indirectly, asked for help and didn't receive it. It is totally my own fault, as I didn't dare to be direct. Yeah, sometimes my bluntness fails me. It doesn't happen that often, but when I have to get personal or share something that is of importance I get just as shy and scared as anyone else. The fear of rejection. There is no thread in this post, no topic. My head doesn't think like that at the moment. I think I am going on some kind of back-up power right now.
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